Friday, August 14, 2009

So, here I am...

...Post #869 and I have learned so much since my first post about myself and others through collecting my thoughts here and in my personal journals where I still to this day use an actual pen on a book of blank pages to write me, my thoughts, on a page. First, I have been wanting to once again just publicly to you, one reader out there, that I have the most amazing husband. I know I refer to him in this blog as Mr. Wonderful and it's true. His amazingness has transitioned over well into being a father and it has become so special to see him interact with our baby girl and love her through the various stages of her day. I always knew he would be a great dad but until your child arrives and all is in motion, you never really know what that will look like. He really, really is a great dad. Now before you get naucious, know that I didn't say he was perfect. He's not. But even so, he is right there with me, imperfections and all with both of us, doing the best job possible.

Second, I've had this shift in attitude just in general about a lot of things. Not sure if it's confidence or certainty about who I am but it's as if I've been given permission to just be and with that, I am okay with whatever may come...So far, I've been able to find a lot of realness in my conversations and my relationships. I think before I would accept shrinking myself in certain settings because I didn't want to make others uncomfortable. And to know now, that it was never about me is really important. Now, I'm making an effort to choose both to create a more balanced exchange of friendship and honesty.

And, third, I am once again in a place of opportunity. It's exciting and I would be untrue if I said I wasn't nervous but not because I don't think it will be a positive experience but because I know it will stretch me further than what I'm used to. Here's to being the best while making best of everything!

Lastly, I am so thankful...So thankful for life and for choices that I've made and that I will make.

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